Thursday, February 24, 2011

Life is ALWAYS worth the fight.

Hey there reader,
I must apologize that I haven't been able to blog. I have been crazy busy. Good thing there is a snow day tomorrow. I can't wait to catch up on things. This blog is going to be dedicated to a girl named Liana. I never knew her personally or even talked to her but her sad and unfortunate actions hurt her friends and family forever.
Liana committed suicide last weekend. I found out at school the next Monday. She was 19 with a beautiful baby girl. She was depressed and couldn't find any hope in her life anymore.
On my Formspring I constantly get questions about suicide. My response- ALWAYS find an alternate. Find someone to talk to. Find an 'anti-drug'. Find a friend or a family member or a teacher that will be willing to listen. I promise you there is it least one person out there in this world that loves you and cares and your life ending, no matter how unimportant you feel will rock the world of those people. Please, please, PLEASE do not give up hope and do not quit fighting. You may feel like there is no hope anywhere, but it will come. Imagine yourself 30 years down the road married with children and being successful. You will never know where you could go if you don't live it out.
Everyone- Look for signs. The littlest things can be the most obvious hints. Mentioning dying, feeling depressed and self-harm are signs that someone could be contemplating suicide. Ask them if they are okay and constantly remind them that you need them, care for them and love them. If it gets bad enough, tell someone because you could be saving a life.
On that note, check out the movie To Save a Life if you get the chance and if you want to know more. It's life changing.
Please if you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hold on. I promise there is hope for you in this world. Liana had such a bright future, but no one will ever know what could be.
You are loved more than you could ever imagine.
Me
P.S.-Directly to my classmates at LHS, open your eyes. It's happening right infront of you. We've got to stop this.
Rest in peace Liana.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Gives Me Hope.

Props to my favorite websites, www.givesmehope.com and www.sixbillionsecrets.com People on there have inspired me to be a better person and showed me how great the world and sad can be. They open your eyes to what is happening around the world and what we can do to save lives. No doubt they have given me a new perspective. You should check 'em out.
I actually got a secret posted once. It was awhile back so it would be impossible to find. It was about my dream of giving others hope. My secret is this blog and my Formspring. I love helping people. So here is your chance. Any secret, any at all. Even if you just need to talk, please e-mail me at alwayssecret21@yahoo.com for a more detailed conversation or just formspring me at www.formspring.me/foreverloved13.
Until tomorrow,
Me.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Love hurts

First off, let me apologize that I didn't have internet connection for the past two days and won't again tomorrow unfortunately. This weekend has been crazy busy for me as well. I may just fall asleep typing this blog. (:
Tomorrow is either a very fun or very lame holiday for many. Valentines day has been around for a long time and has hung around for the reason of relationships and love. It's an excuse to buy the wife flowers or to take the husband to dinner and share a romantic evening. As teenagers and young adults, we look at it as an opportunity to buy each other cheesy teddy bears and chocolates. Either way, I get asked a lot of questions on relationships, so here are my thoughts from a deeper point of view.
Take a leap of faith- I always say go for it. It may be the thing you are most afraid of, but why wait around wondering what could have been when you could be living it out. It's worth a shot and if you try to tell someone you like them and they don't feel the same way it's not the end of the world. Most of the time they just forget about it.
Follow your heart- Your emotions are important. Following your heart is key. Don't keep Mr. or Mrs. wrong just because of social status, money or other reasons. There is a world of people out there that would love to have you for who you are. If you are stuck between two guys or gals, choose the one that makes you happy.
Don't blame yourself- If it doesn't work out that doesn't mean anything. It doesn't mean that you are ugly, worthless or that you have no hope in relationships. That means he or she just wasn't right for you. Pick yourself back up and keep on truckin' along!
Have a great Valentines day no matter how you will be celebrating.
You are loved.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Cutting the Pain.

I saw cuts on her wrist the first day of seventh grade. I had never seen this before, so I didn't really understand. Someone whispered to me, "Hey, look at her cuts! That is so dumb!" I laughed. Little did I know I would follow in her footsteps a couple of years later.
I got to know this girl. I learned her hurts. The abuse, depression and suicide attempts. People called her attention seeker when all she really wanted was to not feel anymore pain. She hurt herself on the outside so she could feel better about the pain on the inside. She wasn't crazy. She wasn't an attention seeker. She just wanted to eliminate the pain. We had a lot in common, but I told myself I wouldn't sink down to such a self low that I would do the same thing.
My freshman year I suffered from similar things. No one knew and still to this day no one knows. I used a pin and did it a few times a week. People thought I was so strong, they never saw me break on the inside.
So what is my advice to the people who post on self-harm?
Put down the razor, stop burning and put the knife away. It will make you stronger. It will develop you into a beautiful person that you will be so proud of, scars and all. These hurts can be fixed, but the cutting and burning will only make it worse. It will be worth it. Keep fighting.
To the friends and parents of self-harmer's- listen to them. That's really all they need. Someone they can trust that won't judge them. Don't ground them, don't look down on them and don't brush it off. Give them love and remind them that they have such a bright future.
Until tomorrow,
Me.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

You are Loved.

Hey there fellow blog members!
I love blogging. It's easy, convenient and just all around amazing! This is going to be my way to keep in touch with you and let you know about my life experiences and daily struggles that I am facing. Plan on an update daily unless it is an overwhelming day and I just can't get on the computer.
This is such a great opportunity give to me to be able to communicate with my Formspring friends. I promised you I would always be there for you, which I will be for sure. I am committed to that. Now here is a way to show you how I develop the answers to the questions and daily struggles I am asked about.
For some of you that don't know, here is what I am about. People can come to me anonymously with questions, concerns and struggles that they are facing through my Formspring website www.formspring.me/foreverloved13. I developed it after breaking through a great amount of struggles with the great help of a support system. Some people don't like talking to friends or family. Some don't have anyone to trust. That is why I am here. To remind the world that everyone is beautiful, no matter what you have heard. Plan on tons of updates and some deeply written blogs.
See you guys tomorrow.
YOU ARE LOVED.