I saw cuts on her wrist the first day of seventh grade. I had never seen this before, so I didn't really understand. Someone whispered to me, "Hey, look at her cuts! That is so dumb!" I laughed. Little did I know I would follow in her footsteps a couple of years later.
I got to know this girl. I learned her hurts. The abuse, depression and suicide attempts. People called her attention seeker when all she really wanted was to not feel anymore pain. She hurt herself on the outside so she could feel better about the pain on the inside. She wasn't crazy. She wasn't an attention seeker. She just wanted to eliminate the pain. We had a lot in common, but I told myself I wouldn't sink down to such a self low that I would do the same thing.
My freshman year I suffered from similar things. No one knew and still to this day no one knows. I used a pin and did it a few times a week. People thought I was so strong, they never saw me break on the inside.
So what is my advice to the people who post on self-harm?
Put down the razor, stop burning and put the knife away. It will make you stronger. It will develop you into a beautiful person that you will be so proud of, scars and all. These hurts can be fixed, but the cutting and burning will only make it worse. It will be worth it. Keep fighting.
To the friends and parents of self-harmer's- listen to them. That's really all they need. Someone they can trust that won't judge them. Don't ground them, don't look down on them and don't brush it off. Give them love and remind them that they have such a bright future.
Until tomorrow,
Me.
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